https://www.facebook.com/p/99-TO-LIFE-100042707028981/

this is the final version of this song. since the "blueunicorn cannot blues" contest was kind of a bust there was only one unicornomite that successfully bluesed on the song. blueunicorn would like to thank one @dennisellis968 for adding some much needed harmonica to the mix.
https://youtu.be/Krq4-TxmibA?si=f3J4Pe5DnLQMfGe2
that being said, blueunicorn would like to congradulate blueunicorn for finally posting this final version of dead in my shell (i love you. i'll cut you but i love you.

the phrase servos ad pileum vocare is a call to liberty, by which slaves were called upon to take up arms with a promise of being freed.

its not necessarily appropriate here as the phrase was usually said by the owner of said slaves in effort to get them to help him in his military campaign, however just pretend it is Spartacus yelling it to his fellow slaves
lyrics by: blueunicorns coporeal form "von"
circa 2009

waiting for your happy ending
living aint like on the silver screen
they just paint it with a smile
so youll miss the underlying themes

there aint no happy endings
the cards are dealt from the top of the deck
you dont get what you pay for
but you gotta pay for what you get

life is slavin at the grindstone
sweating bullets just to make your pay
so you can live a little longer
and slave away another day

cant afford to pay attention
much less afford to pay the rent
and when the piper comes ta callin
cant remember where your money went

it aint easy it anint easy
when it cost ya fifty cents just to make a fuckin dime
it aint easy it aint easy
when you gotta pay the man just to kick you in the can

this aint the way life is supposed to be
slaving away to feed your family
workin forty hours just to go back to work
and then you get home and eat shit for desert

then along comes the taxman
smiling ear to ear gun in his hand
he says, "never mind the pistol"
"im only here to help you, man"

but there aint no illusions
they take, you give
you have to pay the piper if you want the privilege to live

it aint easy it aint easy
when it cost fifty cents just to make a fuckin dime
it aint easy it aint easy
when you gotta pay the man just to kick you in the can
it aint easy it aint easy
every time you punch a clock they got their hands in your pockets
aint easy it aint easy
servos ad pileum vocare

clearly a cover.

I look into the future
I wish that it would never come
I look into the past
I wish that there had never been one

ecstasy flows through my mind I don't know why
vanished or just lost well, these questions fill my drowning mind
you confuse my thoughts
twisting my words around
until I can't think straight anymore

I want this nightmare to end
but it won't this torture haunts me
it creeps into my dreams at night
I wake up crying, "let the nightmare end"

but I know that it's all in my head
swirling around like a ghost inside of me. slowly killing me
you confuse my thoughts twisting my words around
til I can't think straight anymore

I hear it calling from the distance
I try to put it in the back of my head
and I try to ignore it
but I can't I need a fix

this addiction I have is not a drug
it's just a state of mind I'm in
and why I need it I don't know why
I just can't think straight anymore

this addiction I have is oh so powerful
it makes me crazy the way I crave
and why we all need it, I don't know why
we just can't think straight anymore

(for Von's red unicorn. you know who you are)
circa 1994

it's not a love song but a song about love

https://youtube.com/@wesleyscottmusic2889?si=tU6e-D-_9b2Tv-E9